Snowy and quiet

i am looking forward to snow this year ,i usually don't but for some reason i have been wishing for a nice night of snow ,there is just something so peaceful about standing in a field of snow ,the way the moonlight reflects off the snow,everything glistening and quiet ,and the sounds ,the way the smallest sound seems to echo and magnify ,or even the way the quiet feels ,when a sound ends ,it's like the quiet is all encompassing like it's peace fills your soul ,becomes a part of  you ,like somewhere in that moment ,the quiet  ,the beauty ,the peace has become a part of your soul and both you and the world seem ,bigger ,more important and smaller and less important all at the same time

random wandering

this happened several years ago i used to be in the habit of just hopping on a train and going somewhere with no plan in mind just random wandering the last time i did this was to new york i got off near times square and just picked a direction i found several independent book stores and just poked around in them for hours ,then i found several music stores where i bought some vinyl ,sat and watched people play chess in the park ,took some photo's , talked to some people who were stranger's to me   and just had a wonderful time ,some of the best experiences of my life have been unstructured and unplanned so my unsolicited advice of the day take some time to wander and see what the world has in store for you

double wide 3rd entry

the other day  i took a walk and happened to walk through a trailer park ,i sometimes like to people watch and i saw alot that day a kid sitting on a curb by himself ,while nearby 6 or so older kids were playing and he could not or would not play with them ,then a little bit farther along  i saw a double wide trailer where you could clearly hear a knock down ,drag out  argument , you could hear it from the whole area ,as i kept walking i saw way back in the corner a very small trailer ,not even half the size of the huge arguing one but on the porch were 2 elderly people swinging on a porch swing arms around each other and smiling ,they seemed so content ,in something modest and homey ,while the huge trailer was full of arguing and malice,i turned then to go back in that direction to walk home and i again passed the area where the kids were but this time all the kids had rallied closer to the little guy who was now crying a little but also no longer alone .i heard one of the bigger kids say ,it's ok our parent's fight too come back and keep playing ,grown-ups are strange ,the kid gave a little smile and they all walked off to play some more ,so i learned some things that day... 1 the way i  see things sometimes based  on the surface appearances  are completely wrong,2 materialism does not bring happiness ,3kids have a goodness about themselves that is deep and powerful and 4 grown up's are weird
HAve a great day

i may not go down in history but i will go down on your boyfriend

i may not go down in history but i will go down on your boyfriend,seriously i actually would not lately it seems i have been meeting alot of men who want to play around and i will not mess around with people who are with another man unless he is involved too and i will not mess around with men married to women ,not condeming  anyone who does ,but personally i will not be able to live with myself if i were to help someone cheat on a spouse or partner ,at the end of the day i have to be able to look myself in the mirror and love the man i am

first attempt and life observations

Hi Dave here i have never done a blog before but seems like a great  time i am a 45 year old gay man who is looking to start a career in professional writing i have written for years ,and now want to focus on getting my writings published ,also i do alot of amateur photography and i am thinking of putting together a book of my poems  and my photos  .things i am thinking of today ,a morning of awkwardness is far better than an evening of loneliness and sexual frustration